drugs

[daisy]

Wednesday 6/2/2009
paranoid personality disorder
i am too paranoid to go to the doctors
the doctor's offices make me too paranoid

it has a lot to do with the fob thai women
i used to go to their "happy" thai partys - until everything changed
suddenly the thai ladys started telling me over and over again
they're killing people here, they're killing people here

then i realized that they were killing the fob thai ladys
with hemochromatosis = iron overload - by giving them iron shots
so yes the thai ladys do have a legitimate beef
its true - they are killing people here

plus a lot of the thai ladys from thailand were married to military guys that got hepatitis, agent orange, etc.. during wars
so the thai ladys husband were genocided off left and right too

now the fact that they really are killing people here
makes me too scared to go to the hospital or doctors

my problem this month is
soon i need to go to the hospital to get surgery on my mouth
one small salvia gland has closed up in my mouth
so it needs to be taken out
yet as soon as the doctor just talked to me like a drug addict
saying oh i am going to give you a narcotic
so you will be knocked out not knowing what is happening to you
that sentence alone was scary to me
"not knowing what is happening to you"
so i said what kind of narcotic - i don't like drugs
the doctor said oh maybe a valium or something to relax you
we have several different kinds of narcotics we'll pick one

today i feel too scared to go get surgery this month
even though i have already done it a lot in the past

i don't want to take the doctors drugs not even just for this surgery
because the doctor is going to get me hooked on drugs
just like they did everybody else here
everybody else here with a mental illness
which pretty much includes everyone here in america
just because we have mental illnesses
does not mean we deserve to have
drugs that enhance our mental illnesses pushed on us
now i feel like the doctor is the drug pusher man
that acts like he might even be
already hooked on some drugs himself
i don't want the doctor getting me hooked on drugs
at the hospital
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[daisy]

the (drug) pusher man
they do have a lot of drug addicts here in america
that all act like - it is the norm to be a drug addict
which makes me scared to take their hospital drugs
sometimes after people get out of the hospital
they are hooked on drugs
just from being in the hospital - from taking hospital drugs

lately people have been getting hooked on crystal meth
which makes me feel somewhat sorry for them
because they all say - once you start - you can't never stop
so they will probably die from doing crystal meth
because they can only go 2-3 days without it
then by the 4th day they have to go to the ends of the earth for it
just hunting for supplies to make crystal meth
calling everyone's phone number they know
begging everyone to help them go buy some pseudofed

these young women were somebody's daughters
which makes me feel somewhat sorry for them
i told my own daughters that
these crystal meth heads - were somebody's daughters
like ya'll are my daughters so don't never do any crystal meth

most all drugs even pot make people go running for it
chasing after it by the 3rd-4th day
you can't stay home and be normal
(cleaning, cooking and watching tv, etc...)
if you have to go chasing after some kinds of drugs every 3-4 days
on a path of destruction
running after - chasing down your own destruction

drugs = the road to your own destruction
drugs = the govs genociding off - all the ones they just don't want
www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWjteKYxIM8


www.youtube.com/watch?v=RlZr0trLB9M


www.youtube.com/watch?v=nFy4wklCIAg


www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9oIQ7hvo-I


www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEFPdNv2Ddk
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[daisy]

the drugs are the govs coverups for illnesses
you know even in the beginning it takes
" a narcissistic self entitlement to drugs "
to keep doing drugs over and over again
so i would just assume that
all drug addicts are self entitled narcissists (=to some degree)

notice how
most everyone on crystal meth looks like a bonified narcissists
crystal meth is the govs cover up
for "perfect body" narcissistics with aids
since crystal meth already makes you look like walking aids

like crack was the cover up for schizophrenia
crack enduced and enhanced schizophrenic attacks in
people that were "already susceptible to the illness" schizophrenia

and when some of the people got clean and stopped smoking crack
they started still having schizophrenic attacks
which they didn't have before they started smoking crack
so now off of crack they have to take schizophrenia medicines to stop schizophrenic attacks
crack induced and enhanced their "susceptible" schizophrenia

there is a woman here at the projects that looks like walking aids
but to me she is walking schizophrenic with aids
crack did that to her helped her along enhancing her schizophrenia
sometimes she walks around here only being able to talk to herself
locked in her own little world all alone

crack induced and enhanced the
schizophrenic splitting in two of their schizophrenic brains leaving their brains cracked in two = the split in two - schizophrenic brain

"crack" = "a cracking in two" - of the schizophrenic brain
the schizophrenic brain splitting in two
crack = the govs coverup
so everybody would call them - just another crackhead with aids
instead of a walking schizophrenic with aids

"meth" = a "method" - of accomplishing something
like crystal meth accomplishing
the destruction of "perfect body" narcissists
meth = the govs coverup
so everybody would call them - just another meth head with aids
instead of "perfect body" narcissists with aids
www.youtube.com/watch?v=JMNVVUv2VpA


www.youtube.com/watch?v=lHKXxaQNW5g


www.youtube.com/watch?v=1AKJN7n67sA


www.youtube.com/watch?v=8aBpKWBL5lc
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[daisy]

crystal meth
definitely induces and enhances - paranoid personality disorder

this one (real good guitar player) guy i know (chris)
was just eating crystal meth - not smoking it
for as a speed energy diet drug - for just three days

he ended up ripping the whole ceiling down in his home
thinking someone was inside his ceiling
he kept going out there cutting everyone's phone service hookups thinking all the phones were a spy - spying on him

the phone company went out there three times
for three days in a row - to fix everyone's phone lines back
then they finally told him if he didn't stop cutting everyone's phone lines they were going to charge him with a felony

this guy's wife was horrified
she went to sleep with her home all cleaned up spic and span
then woke up the next morning to the whole ceiling torn down
and the home a total wreck
he had also taken all the tvs completely all apart
thinking the tvs are spy equipment too
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[daisy]

crackheads
they call this - just a crack head in the hood
but this is more than just a crackhead
like a disorganized schizophrenic
they are still laughing at schizophrenics
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Chyloo-1J2U


www.youtube.com/watch?v=3TMxR-TC_Yc


www.jazzitalia.net/articoli/powellmonk_eng.asp
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[daisy]

"angel men" = the good angel warning - crack ghost
basically crackheads see ghost too
that seem like some kind of ghost angels - still in human form
like old men ghost sometimes with long white or gray beards
on crack most ghost seem like some kinds of good ghost
like good angel warning ghost trying to warn you
when you are in danger of being killed or dying
or looking at you very sadly disappointed to let you know
that you could die if you keep doing too much crack

"shadow men" = crystal meth - the devils drug
the dark black demonic - crystal meth ghost
on crystal meth most ghost seen are like bad demonic ghost
not givers more like takers just wanting something from you

though sometimes at first they see an evil demonic dark black dog
on crystal meth most ghost are dark black ghost
that they call the shadow people
making crystal meth like
the (dark black) night of the living dead

here is a post someone else put up about
the crystal meth shadow people ghost
I have heard and read about
the common occurance of "shadow people" by meth users.
I had a friend who told me after being high for days, he would see groups of them. They were so dark that they were blacker than the black in the room and they would sometimes be in groups. He said sometimes they had dark clothes hanging like gypsy clothes.
He always felt like they needed something from him or wanted something from him, like they were weak.
I have also read about them on various meth recovery sights where addicts tell their stories. Urgh.....creepy...

But I believe in demons and I am entirely convinced that these are demonic. I know some out there will think its crazy delusions from screwing yourself up on drugs and being sleep deprived but I think its really odd that it is common among crystal users.
Maybe the drug is a gateway to these particular beings.
Has anyone out there had experience with this??
Or know someone who has?
www.discovervancouver.com/forums/crystal%20meth%20shadow%20people/Meth-shadow-people-t17211.html&st=60&start=60


hubpages.com/hub/The-Truth-About-Meth--Witchcraft--And-Demons


hubpages.com/hub/Rhemas-Room-Twilight


www.youtube.com/watch?v=NXiTSiS3pWc
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[daisy]

crystal meth shadow people
Shadow people are defined as shadow like creatures. They appear as dark forms in the peripheral of people’s vision. They appear, disintegrate, move through walls and disappear like smoke. Shadow people aren’t like ghosts because they don’t have human features, they don’t appear with period clothing, and they don’t try to communicate. Witnesses have reported being chased or terrorized by them. The encounters typically accompany a feeling of dread.

There are a gazillion stories and testimonies about people seeing these things. Who knows what is true and what isn’t.
(Only the shadow knows!)
It seems that one of the common denominators of many witnesses is drug use.
Crystal Meth addicts see shadow people all the time.
My first response was ‘so what, drug users hallucinate all the time.’ But it’s rare for a group to hallucinate the same thing.
When groups of crystal meth users were together they reported seeing the same gathering of shadow people, moving in the same way, in the same place. They all saw the same number of them.
www.calvarychapelsweetwater.com/apps/articles/default.asp?articleid=53282&columnid=4923.


jezebel.com/332765/crystal-meth-is-a-hell-of-a-drug
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[daisy]

12 hours ?
crystal meth = 5 to 9
most people around here - in nc
do crystal meth for as long as
5 to 9 days straight in a row - day after day without stopping

"Remember back in the '60s when they used to say speed kills?
Well, that's what they were talking about,"
www.drug-rehabs.org/con.php?cid=1579&state=Pennsylvania
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