suicide

[daisy]

last night on the telephone
one of my friends told me that
he had come so close to comitting suicide before
until god came upon him and told him that
everything would be o.k.

when it rains it pours

omg my brothers girlfriend's uncle
comitted suicide yesterday and
now it is all over the front page of the newspapers
the newspapers said he left a suicide note
before his single gun shot wound to his head

and now my brothers girlfriend is mad because she says
no one told her about the suicide note
and she wonders why she only found out about the note
from reading the newspapers

yes it is still a shame that her uncle killed himself yesterday
so my brother's girlfriend's mom's brother killed himself at age 53
some people just could not take it anymore

yes everyone needs a forum like this one
just to help u.s. cope now
omg i hope this suicide did not have anything to do with
us needing money to move those 3 trailers
= since my brothers girlfriend is living in one of those trailers
and it was her uncle that killed himself over financial woes
www.newsargus.com/news/archives/2006/10/17/man_dies_after_call_for_help/index.shtml
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[daisy]

and then life goes on
my youngest albino boc daughter says that she found out more stuff
and is now almost positive for sure that
my brothers girlfriend is not having my brothers baby

mainly because when she said she aborted nates baby
before she claims she got re-pregnant by my brother
she was only gone for an hour with her mom
to supposedly get the abortion
and it takes 2 hours just to drive to the nearest abortion clinic
in raleigh, nc

so yes she is lying to my brother
=making my brother believe she is having his baby

o.k. just for my records - when
nathan benjamin davis - dob=12/22/1984[/b]
got out of prison
he was counting the days - timing the pregnancy
saying that he knows that is his baby !

(darn - too bad that brianna got nate hooked on crack
and right now nate is still a crackhead
then brianna left nate and got with cory
and thank god that cory got brianna off of crack)[/size]
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[daisy]

i believe some suicides are borderline narcissism cases
when borderlines call others on the telephone
always demanding money from them
and when they have money to give the borderlines
then it is love
yet when they do not have enough money to give the borderlines
then it is rejection

love or rejection that is all you can get from the borderlines
until you feel like just going ahead and killing yourself
because you can not take it anymore
yes one person can only take so much

and it appears that sometimes
a borderline can kill off another borderline
the borderlines are killing each other off

Narcissus is another example among several of a beautiful young man who spurned sex and died as a result.
As such, his myth has much in common with those of Adonis and Hippolytus. In the Roman poet Ovid's retelling of the myth,

Narcissus is the son of the river god Cephissus and the nymph Liriope. Tiresias, the seer, told his parents that the child "would live to an old age if it did not look at itself."

Many nymphs and girls fell in love with him but he rejected them.
One of these nymphs, Echo, was so distraught over this rejection that she withdrew into a lonely spot and faded until all that was left was a plaintive whisper.

The goddess Nemesis heard the rejected girls prayers for vengeance and arranged for Narcissus to fall in love with his own reflection.
He stayed watching his reflection and let himself die.
www.borderlinepersonality.ca/bordernarcissism1.htm

Borderline narcissism is an overcompensation for
deep-seated feelings of perceived inadequacy
and for feelings of being "less than" and "incompetent",

as is grandiosity and arrogance

It is that overcompensation, along with denial of their actual feelings that leads borderlines to often be so narcissistically indifferent to those with whom they are otherwise closely in relationship to or with.

* That sudden pulling away,
* that sudden coldness
* and acting as if
there is nothing between them and someone else

is a function of borderline narcissism
and is designed to further
the mal-adaptive defensive coping skills
of the borderline
who is usually trying in any way possible
to not be put in touch with his/her real feelings
because the anxiety and fear of those feelings
remain greater than the need for them.

When you are as dissociated from your "real" self,
as many borderlines are,
there is no real need in the here and now
of that chaotic dissociative existence to know how one really feels -- especially when the pain of ever- mounting unmet needs
hurts enough all by itself, and must be avoided at all costs.
www.borderlinepersonality.ca/bordernarcissism1.htm
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[daisy]

Attorney dies in apparent suicide pact
Family friend finds Vaught, wife in car in garage

By Jennifer Menster - Record Staff Writer
Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Hickory, N.C. - It was not uncommon to find Curt Vaught doodling.

But the longtime Hickory attorney wasn’t drawing circles, flowers or his name. Whenever he had rare idle time,
Vaught would doodle algebraic equations,
said fellow attorney Scott Reilly.

On Sunday, March 18, 2007
a family friend found Vaught dead. Vaught and his wife were in a vehicle in their garage. They died in an apparent suicide pact.

Sheriff David Huffman said there is no indication of foul play in either death. The car was enclosed in a garage
in their northwest Hickory home.

Huffman is waiting to hear from the medical examiner the official cause of death. Huffman said the couple left a note,
but would not elaborate.

This is the first double suicide Huffman recalls in his 25 years.
It’s procedure that law enforcement investigates all unattended deaths, Huffman said. An autopsy is likely.

Stephanie Gilliam, a paralegal at Curt J. Vaught and Associates, said Mary Vaught was ill. She also said
Vaught had some financial issues,
but she didn’t know the extent of the problem.
The state bar said there had been no disciplinary action
taken against the 60-year-old attorney.

Gilliam said fellow employees wish they had more answers.

“He loved the practice of law. He thoroughly enjoyed the work he did,” Gilliam said, who worked for Vaught for two years.
“He was a loyal friend and a hard worker.
He was a happy man.”

Gilliam said more than anything Vaught loved his wife.
She doesn’t know why the double suicide happened, but says
it was out of love for each other, not hatred or murder. For lack of a better term, Gilliam said it was a Romeo and Juliet story.

“They couldn’t live without each other,” she said.
“His biggest enjoyment in life was making her happy.”

Scott Matthews partnered with Vaught for about eight years.
He was shocked to learn of Curt and Mary’s death. Although, he said, it wasn’t a surprise the two went together.

Vaught was a mentor for Matthews
when Matthews became a lawyer.
Vaught began his career
working as an intern with Matthews’ father,
according to a May 11, 1979, Hickory Daily Record article.
Vaught later shared a law practice with Matthews’ father.

“I looked to Curt early in my career and still considered him
a valuable resource,” Matthews said.
“He could remember statutes as they applied to law
off the top of his head. He was a great resource,
he was also kind and polite.”

Matthews said Vaught was a great conversationalist.
He was up-to-date on sports and politics.
Vaught also loved to talk mechanics and construction.
Vaught was a civil engineer major at N.C. State University. Matthews said the two shared a friendly rivalry,
with Matthews a Tar Heel fan
and Vaught cheering for the Wolfpack.

“I’m going to miss him,” Matthews said. “He was a close friend.
This is a huge loss.”

Vaught was a former Marine, spending a year in Vietnam.
He received his law degree from Wake Forest.
In 1981, Vaught was elected as
the Catawba County Democratic chairman.
He met Mary Teague in college at N.C. State University.
The two married in 1972.
They loved horses and dogs, Gilliam said, and had no children. Mary was active in the community before she became sick.

Investigators are still looking into the preliminary details of the case. No funeral arrangements have been announced.

So, they wait. People who knew the Vaughts
wait with heavy hearts and teary eyes. And at the least
one will miss the guy in the courtroom doodling equations.

[e-mail] | 322-4510 x5409 or 304-6916
www.hickoryrecord.com/servlet/Satellite?pagename=HDR/Page/HDR_SectionFront&c=Page&cid=1035488815570
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[daisy]

i got my last bit of paperwork by him
friday march 16, 2007
and i was suppose to return it to him this week
so it is kind of hard for me to believe
that he killed himself sunday march 18, 2007
after i was just faxed some of his paperwork on
friday march 16, 2007
Curt J Vaught & Associates
www.lawyers.com/North-Carolina/Hickory/Vaught-and-Associates-1401940-f.html

www.vaught-law.com/

www.hickoryrecord.com/servlet/Satellite?pagename=HDR/Page/HDR_SectionFront&c=Page&cid=1035488815570

www.hickorysunrise.org/
now i wish he would not have done it
i wish he would have just went back to his office
on monday march 19, 2007
instead of dying on sunday march 18, 2007
hey i think - i still owe him money for my paperwork he did
i do not believe that anyone should kill themselves !
well rest in peace curt j vaught and wife mary teague
may god be with you - forever !
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June 2, 2007
omg my esp is kicking in again
isn't it weird that my paperwork was like the very last legal paperwork
that this lawyer curt j vaught ever wrote up and signed
now it is almost like
curt j vaught is speaking to me from the grave
telling me that
it was not a suicide - him and his wife did not kill themselves
the main important thing he is telling me is that
the note does not match the words
the words on the suicide note are not his words !
like the words on the suicide note were his murderers words
like he was forced at gun point to write the suicide note
then forced at gunpoint to go out inside the garage
into a cranked up running vehicle
forced at gunpoint into the vehicle
(possibly knocked out with some kind of knock out chemical)
then left to die from the vehicle exhaust fumes
locked inside the garage !
(omg - i hope they were not shot - by their murderers)

curt j vaught is speaking to me from the grave
telling me that it was a perfect murder - framed suicide !
yet since he is telling me this in a dream
and i am way down here in the flatlands
not in the mountains (where it happened) to investigate
possibly about the most i could hope for is for
people to probably just think i am crazy

may god help you, me and all of u.s.
curt j vaught - with gods help as usual
it all comes out in the wash !
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Deaths were shocking; suicide not an answer
Hickory Daily Record Saturday, March 24, 2007

With suicide at epidemic levels in our country, I was concerned with the referral to Romeo and Juliet in the news article about
the unfortunate deaths of Mary and Curt Vaught.
We have been neighbors of the Vaughts for 23 years.
Mary and Curt did love each other, but there was no romance or glamour with their suicide.

Sunday evening when they were found dead,
it was just cold, dark, death. No glamour.
Neighbors and friends gathered in shock, horror and disbelief as law officers traveled up and down our road.
Long hours were spent investigating, but all that remained was emptiness and loss and lots of unanswered questions.

Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems that can never be worked on and solved after death.

Now, friends and neighbors must deal with the constant reminder of an empty house where this tragedy occurred and two lives with such potential are lost to Hickory.

So please intervene, get help for friends and loved ones that are depressed or going through desperate times. Take a risk - someone’s life could depend on it.

Suicide is never the answer.

Lisa H. Keever - Hickory
search curt j vaught
search.hickoryrecord.com/Search.jsp

Curt J. Vaught, 60, Hickory, N.C. March 18, 2007. (Obituary)
www.ncbar.org/membership/memoriam/index.aspx
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June 6, 2007
o.k. so now he is saying that
they would not have killed the dog
that their murderers killed their dog

telling me to think back to when i was dragged into
that same suicide pac situation
think back would the person that tried to drag me into it
would he have included the dog
my answer = no
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[daisy]

saturday march 24, 2007
susan died today
i might as well put her under suicide
because she crack smoked herself to death
an fob boc jew man tried to help her for the past 3 years
yet she had already ruined her heart valve - smoking crack
the hospital put a plastic valve in her
and told her she had to stop smoking crack
because the plastic valve could not stand the pressure of
her heart beating 100 miles per hour from crack
yet she would not listen and she smoked crack all night
on friday and had a heart attack on saturday and died

susan had two 5 & 6 year old childen that she left behind
(with her dad)
who already miss her and want to know where their mommy is
well rest in peace susan
may peace be with susan now

may god and peace be with susans two children
still here now - without their mother !
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[daisy]

also susans crackhead friends all missed her today too
susans friends are about 6 crackhead girls - all homeless
and staying in one motel room

they all look twice their age now
and they all look like death warmed over now
because now they put something in their drugs
(maybe crystal meth or etc...)
that makes them age 20 times faster
so now when they are 30 years old
they look like they are 50 years old

and they all look like aids patients now
so now they probally all are - aids patients
most of them survived the winter pretty good
(except for some pneumonia)
yet now that spring is here again
now they are dropping like flys again

isn't it weird that
some narcissists love only themselves so much
that they end up killing themselves

another one gone and another one gone
another one bites the dust !
www.oregonlive.com/special/oregonian/meth/
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